Like the passage says, I spent the first 9 months of being an entrepreneur with an imaginary gun to my head doing doing doing and making things happen. I look back and smile now at how I thought that my effort was what was getting things done. But I see now that was not the case. That effort was just making my body and mind hurt.
That has not proven to be sustainable.
I went to an event 2 weeks ago called Real Life Book Club Social. One of the panel speakers, Julia Gentry, said how we, as adults, are like kids sitting on our mom’s lap in the driver seat with our hands on the steering wheel saying, “Look Mom and Dad! I’m driving!” and we believe it!!!! We really think we are driving. That we are actually in control. Our parents smile knowingly and sweetly thinking, “That’s so cute! Brittany really thinks that she’s driving.”
I’m learning that all that we are actually in control of in this life are our intentions. I’ve intended to create a community of people and share movement and lightness of spirit with them. What has in turn fallen into place, in the last 11 months, is a community of people doing yoga and becoming brighter versions of themselves in the process. That was going to happen regardless of my stress level because I first intended it and then took steps and actions in the direction of my dream/intention and trusted!
Starting a month ago, I set the imaginary gun down and gave up the hard work. I decided to move through my days with ease and a sense of “Brittany, what do you want to do today?!?!” It is amazing how much I’ve accomplished in much less time and with so much fun and inspiration. And I’m astonished that regardless of “to-do” list check marks, CCYOGA continues to grow!
Don’t get me wrong, the “to-do” list is still super long. But now I move through my days from a place of trusting that I WON’T get it all done, BUT, what actually needs to get done WILL get done. And it will get done regardless of my stress level and sense of urgency.
So I might as well have fun!