Day 41 of … hey wait, I thought this was only 40 days? So what does that make day 41? The beginning, the end? It makes it a continuation, a reaffirmation of commitment. To yourself, if you were wondering.
To be honest, I wasn’t even going to participate. I felt like such a newbie and heard 40 days and didn’t believe that I could do it, even with starting small. But Brittany believed I could, and if she believes I can do it, then I can. So I said, alright, sign me up!
I like checking off boxes, writing things down, so the workbook Brittany put together was wonderful, and added bonus, we had Nikki help us out on the nutrition side! The key for me was to be able to compartmentalize each step, the meditation, the food, the reading, the journaling, the yoga practices, but also able to look at the weekly chart and go “Wow, look what you accomplished this first week!” which got me excited for the second, and the third.
The fourth week I felt like I hit a roadblock. Every part of the day seemed to be a struggle, meditating, paying attention to what I was eating, and even the practice. At some point, I realized I was making it harder for myself, that all I needed was to work on something for even 5 minutes here, then go about my day, then 5 minutes there. I discovered I was in control, I had the ability to incorporate the meditation, the yoga practice, the food, however I needed and it would still mean a successful day. I was able to use some of the podcasts Brittany had sent for previous days as well as the videos she had posted on YouTube.
And you know what happened? I relaxed. I relaxed in my life, with my children, with my husband, with my practice. I was able to look at what I was doing, choose what I was doing, and look at myself and say, no matter what, as long as you keep doing, keep choosing, keep trying, you are successful. And I was, I am. I am. I am.
And I made it do day 41. Or day 1. Or day somewhere in the middle, with no plan for an end, but a continuation of the commitment to myself.
Would I participate in 40 Days of Yoga again? Most assuredly. Would I encourage you to participate? Most definitely. It doesn’t matter if you have just introduced yourself to yoga, been practicing for 4 months, or 5 years or more, it is worth it to yourself. So you can discover your own I AM.