This is another fill in the blank sentence that is new to my world and I’m grateful for it in both my yoga practice and in my daily life in Lakewood, CO. I love it because every moment is constantly changing. For me this can often be a good thing because if I am present to the experience of something “bad” then I can be hopeful that that could be different at the next time I fill the blank in. I am present to the experience of fatigue. I am present to the experience of joy. I am present to the experience of anticipation. I’m learning to work this sentence in conjunction to another new one to me, “I create myself as….” I create myself as an authentic human being. I create myself as love. I create myself as creative and intelligent. I like the two together because you get to acknowledge how your currently feeling without shoving it into a dark closet to come out in a big surprise later in the day, the week, month, life. Yet the “I create myself as…” doesn’t leave you stuck and it opens you up to all sorts of possibilities! “Right now I’m present to the experience of missing my husband (he lives in Beijing, China). I create myself as a strong and patient woman excited about seeing him sooner than later! Some examples from my last week: Right now I am present to the experience of fear of failure. I create myself as a courageous and creative business woman. Right now I am present to the experience of an insane craving for chocolate. I create myself as a calm and loving woman with or without chocolate! Right now I am present to the experience of frustration at the “mean” lady at the park who yelled at me about the dogs playing. I create myself as a compassionate person who recognizes that we all have things we are working through. *It would have been a way better scenario with the woman if, instead of me being defensive behind a passive aggressive smile and walking home with the dogs on the verge of tears, I had asked the lady about her day and maybe even what her need to stop her car to take my picture with my dogs off lease was really about.
**Or I could have remembered in that moment as Mollie, of www.twosticksandaboard.com, reminded me later, “You just happened to bump into her journey she is struggling through. Let go-” ***or maybe the lady just wanted me to have my dogs on leash because it is the rule. And I truly simply need to let go of my defensiveness. At the training I went to last week, I learned all sorts of useful tools like this, in addition to lots of yoga, that I plan to bring more readily in my life and into our Lakewood, CO yoga community! As they continue to bring meaning to my life I will share them.
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